Have you ever been at a crossroads? A place where you need to make really tough decisions but you really don't know which is the right decision? And you're praying about it but it really doesn't seem like an answer is coming? And you want to consult a friend for Godly counsel but none of your friends have been where you are and talking to people who aren't there or haven't been there just doesn't help... What do you do?
I'm in that situation right now and I really don't have a clue what to do. Some will say "wait on the Lord" and I agree with that but what to do in the meantime because in every situation I can't just sit and do nothing. As you can see I'm not going to go into detail about the situation. I would like to but it involves more than just myself and to be honest with you I'm really not seeking advice from anyone on the situation until I find someone in a similar situation. It's like if someone loses their mother, it's nice to give condolences but true understanding can only come from someone who's been there.
Since I've been praying on this I've ran into many people in this situation that I've met in bathrooms or out and about. And you know how we women are we just get to talking and tell our life stories within 5 minutes :-) and in the midst of these conversations I feel God may not be answering my prayer just yet. But then it does seem like He's comforting me. Telling me through these strangers that it's going to be ok in the end. If it's not God then I don't know what or who it is because it's been too weird the run ins I've been having with people lately. Out of the blue they're talking to me about something I'm going through and these people don't even know it. They may or may not be Christians but God has used these run ins in my life and they've come at times when I was at my lowest. Now again I'm waiting.
Lord I really really need your help and guidance, Thank you so much for the strangers I've met lately. Thank you for a supportive husband and two wonderful children. Have you told me what to do and I'm just missing it? If so please tell me again. I want to make the right decisions but I just want to know what do I do, because I really don't know anymore...
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Loving someone more
Ever since I've had children I look at the gospel in a new light. Jesus was the son of God and for him have to watch his son suffer and die... It had to be the ultimate sacrifice. I couldn't imagine willingly sending my child that way.
I so love my family. To be honest with you I don't ever like to think about the possibility of losing my husband or children. I even pray that if God were to choose someone in our household to allow them to go through something then let it be me not my husband and especially not my children. Though if God chooses not to answer that prayer then I have faith knowing he'll carry me through whatever trials may come.
Having children has been the most life changing thing for me. I already loved my husband before them but love him so much more now. My daughter's really clingy to him right now. I watched him put her down yesterday to get some things done but she still wanted to be held and I saw her follow him into the kitchen (past me) and extend her little arms up to him. He stopped what he was doing and grabbed her. It was a beautiful moment.
Lately I find myself observing a lot. I find myself just watching my children in play and even when they sleep. While writing this my 2 year old woke up with a nightmare and I just put him back down (mind you those times specifically aren't always fun:-) but I still get joy out of being able to comfort them. Luke 2:51 says: "51Then he went down to Nazareth with them and was obedient to them. But his mother treasured all these things in her heart". Notice how his mother "treasured" these moments.
I was at a family reunion about 2 weeks ago on my husbands side and I was talking to a cousin of his and I let her know that I noticed two things about her. First she really loves her husband, second they truly seemed to enjoy their children ( they have three grown and one still at home). I told her that and she said she loves that man and loves being a mother. I'm sure it wasn't all roses all the time but through it all I loved talking to an older woman who let me know it was still worth it.
Our children are only in our care for a season and it's not even gauranteed they will live longer then us though that is our prayer. Please enjoy them, love them and cherish them.
-- Post From My iPhone
I so love my family. To be honest with you I don't ever like to think about the possibility of losing my husband or children. I even pray that if God were to choose someone in our household to allow them to go through something then let it be me not my husband and especially not my children. Though if God chooses not to answer that prayer then I have faith knowing he'll carry me through whatever trials may come.
Having children has been the most life changing thing for me. I already loved my husband before them but love him so much more now. My daughter's really clingy to him right now. I watched him put her down yesterday to get some things done but she still wanted to be held and I saw her follow him into the kitchen (past me) and extend her little arms up to him. He stopped what he was doing and grabbed her. It was a beautiful moment.
Lately I find myself observing a lot. I find myself just watching my children in play and even when they sleep. While writing this my 2 year old woke up with a nightmare and I just put him back down (mind you those times specifically aren't always fun:-) but I still get joy out of being able to comfort them. Luke 2:51 says: "51Then he went down to Nazareth with them and was obedient to them. But his mother treasured all these things in her heart". Notice how his mother "treasured" these moments.
I was at a family reunion about 2 weeks ago on my husbands side and I was talking to a cousin of his and I let her know that I noticed two things about her. First she really loves her husband, second they truly seemed to enjoy their children ( they have three grown and one still at home). I told her that and she said she loves that man and loves being a mother. I'm sure it wasn't all roses all the time but through it all I loved talking to an older woman who let me know it was still worth it.
Our children are only in our care for a season and it's not even gauranteed they will live longer then us though that is our prayer. Please enjoy them, love them and cherish them.
-- Post From My iPhone
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Stepping back
Seriously, I just needed a break from everything which is why I haven't updated this blog in so long.
I was listening to a program the other day and the Pastor was saying how some people rely heavily on Christian programs, books, ministry groups etc. to get them through but spend very little time in God's word and prayer and just time to themselves. And I realized that was starting to describe me.
I'd gotten semi addicted to face book and blogging and in my spare time, when the children and hubby were sleep that's what I've been doing and I realized it was beginning to be too much. I listened to my ministries while washing clothes but was spending very little time with Christ himself, in prayer and Bible study. And this should be primary not secondary.
I actually love Bible study but lately I'd been squeezing it in instead of making time for it. So I decided to take a two day hiatus from face book. Kind of like a fast if you will. I wanted to use this time to concentrate on other things and to fit in Bible Study. And not just a rushed verse here and there but real Bible reading. I have the IPhone now and it's so easy to just click on that app and the other apps on my phone. My People app, my TMZ app etc. Just stuff that takes up a ton of time with no real benefit. So I deleted a few apps that were time consumers and decided to take a step back from face book (by not clicking on it).
And you know it was one of the best things for me. So much so I'm going to start doing it more often. I'm not leaving face book completely. It's a really great tool for keeping in touch with people but I have to set limits on that and everything else in my life that's starting to get in the way of what's most important. Time with my Saviour, my husband, and my children.
I was listening to a program the other day and the Pastor was saying how some people rely heavily on Christian programs, books, ministry groups etc. to get them through but spend very little time in God's word and prayer and just time to themselves. And I realized that was starting to describe me.
I'd gotten semi addicted to face book and blogging and in my spare time, when the children and hubby were sleep that's what I've been doing and I realized it was beginning to be too much. I listened to my ministries while washing clothes but was spending very little time with Christ himself, in prayer and Bible study. And this should be primary not secondary.
I actually love Bible study but lately I'd been squeezing it in instead of making time for it. So I decided to take a two day hiatus from face book. Kind of like a fast if you will. I wanted to use this time to concentrate on other things and to fit in Bible Study. And not just a rushed verse here and there but real Bible reading. I have the IPhone now and it's so easy to just click on that app and the other apps on my phone. My People app, my TMZ app etc. Just stuff that takes up a ton of time with no real benefit. So I deleted a few apps that were time consumers and decided to take a step back from face book (by not clicking on it).
And you know it was one of the best things for me. So much so I'm going to start doing it more often. I'm not leaving face book completely. It's a really great tool for keeping in touch with people but I have to set limits on that and everything else in my life that's starting to get in the way of what's most important. Time with my Saviour, my husband, and my children.
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