Tuesday, July 28, 2009
New Blog
Hi all! I've started a new blog! I'll still be maintaining this one but I've started my weight loss process and didn't want to include that in this blog. So I've created another blog totally designated for weight loss. If your interested you can read it here.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Being the best
I saw a report on Beyonce the other day. I'll admit, I'm not a huge fan, though I'd be outright lying if I denied liking some of her music. The girl's got talent and recently Forbes named her the Highest paid star under 30. Which is a pretty huge accomplishment. That made me go on Youtube and look her up. I wanted to see a biography on her. I'm curious when I hear about people being the best in their field. There's a ton of singers, entrepreneurs, actors, actresses, doctors, teachers etc. But few ever are recognized for being the best. That seems hard to do and when I see someone deemed the best in their field I'm always curious about their work ethic.
So anyway I found a biography on Beyonce that was actually quite interesting and very quickly came to realize why she entered a very competitive field and was able to surpass so many people who were already in it and ultimately dominate it. The music industry already had their envogues, TLC, Allure (if you can remember them), 3LW etc. All these different girl groups. So what made Destiny's Child the best? One person and that was having Beyonce in the group. Also having Matthew and Tina as parents.
The Biography report had her old Destiny Child members on talking about her as well as her parents. And something they said struck me. Beyonce is probably the hardest working woman in show business and she was always thinking outside of the box. One of the members said she'd come up with stuff for them to do, routines if you will, before going out on stage and it'd be something so incredibly outrageous but when they performed it...well it worked. After leaving Destiny's Child she went on to be the number one female entertainer.
I can't leave her parents out. He father quit his high paying job as a sales person to manage the group and his wife said that for awhile he seemed almost obsessed with the girls singing group. After Beyonces group lost on Star Search he asked Ed McMahn for advice.
I know you're wondering why am I writing so much about Beyonce, especially since I already said I'm not a huge fan per se. And I know you may feel what I'm saying about her may contradict some of my earlier post regarding music etc. But I guess her life intrigued me. Not because I care about stardom and I really don't want my children in that industry but it intrigued me because as children of God we should strive to be the best in whatever we do. And our motivation should be to please Christ.
I was just convicted when watching it because I can be better at so many things yet laziness sometimes holds me back. I know I can blame it on being tired, with two children, blah, blah blah. But sometimes that's not it. Just plain old laziness. People who succeed in life are hard workers. Period. And even when they run into rough situations that seem impossible to get over they still figure out away to make it through. They don't give up. Ed McMahn told Beyonces Dad something interesting. He said believe it or not the people who were the most successful are the people who lost on star search. He said rarely do the winners go on to be anything, but rather the losers have a better chance. Interesting. He said those people if they choose not to give up, analyze their performance and figure out how to do it better and that makes a difference in their success.
So anyway it was interesting. Beyonce's living her dream because of her hard work. Everyone's dream job is different. I never knew this would be it to be honest with you but I find being a homemaker exciting and I always want to be the best at what I do and I've said in the past I want to be the best at loving the Lord, being a Godly wife and a good mother. I put a lot of focus on my marriage and a huge focus on motherhood. There's so much going on now as the children are growing so fast. Nathan's language is progressing and I'm so proud of him. Peyton is starting to use words and she knows sign language and she's working on her walking. I set goals for myself and the children all the time. Right now one of my main goals is to continue to move the children forward, especially in the areas that need the most attention. I try to come up with new and creative ways to teach Nathan and Peyton things. I'm really interested in their personalities and how they learn. There's going to be tons of mistakes along the way but I still want to be the best wife and mother I can be for my family :-)
So anyway I found a biography on Beyonce that was actually quite interesting and very quickly came to realize why she entered a very competitive field and was able to surpass so many people who were already in it and ultimately dominate it. The music industry already had their envogues, TLC, Allure (if you can remember them), 3LW etc. All these different girl groups. So what made Destiny's Child the best? One person and that was having Beyonce in the group. Also having Matthew and Tina as parents.
The Biography report had her old Destiny Child members on talking about her as well as her parents. And something they said struck me. Beyonce is probably the hardest working woman in show business and she was always thinking outside of the box. One of the members said she'd come up with stuff for them to do, routines if you will, before going out on stage and it'd be something so incredibly outrageous but when they performed it...well it worked. After leaving Destiny's Child she went on to be the number one female entertainer.
I can't leave her parents out. He father quit his high paying job as a sales person to manage the group and his wife said that for awhile he seemed almost obsessed with the girls singing group. After Beyonces group lost on Star Search he asked Ed McMahn for advice.
I know you're wondering why am I writing so much about Beyonce, especially since I already said I'm not a huge fan per se. And I know you may feel what I'm saying about her may contradict some of my earlier post regarding music etc. But I guess her life intrigued me. Not because I care about stardom and I really don't want my children in that industry but it intrigued me because as children of God we should strive to be the best in whatever we do. And our motivation should be to please Christ.
I was just convicted when watching it because I can be better at so many things yet laziness sometimes holds me back. I know I can blame it on being tired, with two children, blah, blah blah. But sometimes that's not it. Just plain old laziness. People who succeed in life are hard workers. Period. And even when they run into rough situations that seem impossible to get over they still figure out away to make it through. They don't give up. Ed McMahn told Beyonces Dad something interesting. He said believe it or not the people who were the most successful are the people who lost on star search. He said rarely do the winners go on to be anything, but rather the losers have a better chance. Interesting. He said those people if they choose not to give up, analyze their performance and figure out how to do it better and that makes a difference in their success.
So anyway it was interesting. Beyonce's living her dream because of her hard work. Everyone's dream job is different. I never knew this would be it to be honest with you but I find being a homemaker exciting and I always want to be the best at what I do and I've said in the past I want to be the best at loving the Lord, being a Godly wife and a good mother. I put a lot of focus on my marriage and a huge focus on motherhood. There's so much going on now as the children are growing so fast. Nathan's language is progressing and I'm so proud of him. Peyton is starting to use words and she knows sign language and she's working on her walking. I set goals for myself and the children all the time. Right now one of my main goals is to continue to move the children forward, especially in the areas that need the most attention. I try to come up with new and creative ways to teach Nathan and Peyton things. I'm really interested in their personalities and how they learn. There's going to be tons of mistakes along the way but I still want to be the best wife and mother I can be for my family :-)
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
I hate bugs
I'm laying down watching tv last nighy when out of the corner of my eye something was running full speed! I look down and saw a huge cenitipede. It was brown and the carpets beige so I almost missed it. I didn't want to step on him (it was on my carpet). I was able to find the Raid (of course I couldn't find the nonscented one when I needed it) and I lightely sprayed him cause I didn't want that in the carpet either. Now it's the next morning and I still smell the Raid yuck! And I'm extremely paranoid and can't wait until the children are up so I can vacuum the enitre upstairs. (who knows that dumb centipede may have brought a sibling up with him:-)
-- Post From My iPhone
Monday, July 13, 2009
Can't put a pricetag on it
This post is kind of directed more so at my SAHM buddies.
My husband and I got into an interesting conversation today. We were talking about the age old struggle (one of the age old struggles I'd imagine there's many others to choose from) of why women struggle so much with choosing to stay home vs. working a job.
I think I said this before that when first walking away from work it was a huge struggle. I really felt like I was giving up something I'd worked so hard for just to stay home and possibly be bored with a baby. And when I first went home I felt that it'd really only be until my children entered school. But since decided that unless the hubby wants me to work I'd like for this arrangement to be permanent. But my husband and I were talking and I told him that a lot of SAHM's still struggle with missing work and he was wondering why. After all he said if he was able to leave his job and stay home he'd be fine with it. (Keep in mind that my hubby runs a website so if he were to come home he'd be doing that full time which is what he really wants anyhow, me too I might add). But if we didn't need the income that his work provides then he'd have no problem leaving and to be honest with you I totally believe him. So why, he's wondering do some women struggle with this feeling as if they're missing something when home instead of at work. Why such discontentment among SAHM's? And I know quite a few SAHM's now and I'm not saying they're not all content but I truly only know one other who would want to make staying at home permanent after the kids are in school. The rest do really like being at home but at the same time can't wait to go back to work.
I guess I have a different mindset. I think I said in an earlier post that I don't care what my children become as long as their profession honors Christ. And not to contradict that earlier post but of course I'm going to encourage them in different areas. However I don't share the same attachment to work that some women have for several reasons:
Call me shallow but I like things big and expensive and never wanted to be middle class. I'm thrifty out of necessity not out of desire. I want to live in a gated community with a 10,000+ square ft home (and someone else to clean it) with the vehicle of my choosing. To some that's unbiblical to state you want to be rich but I don't care. It's not a life long goal or an obsession of mine by any means but I'll be real I want more money. I'm content with where I am right now but I still believe on improving and if we're going to get to that upper 6 and 7 digits we're not going to do it pushing any one's time clock. Someone once said Job stands for Just Over Broke and I echo that sentiment. Some may argue that if I were to go back to work I may have some of these things. If you think that, you still don't understand my mindset. I want those things and I want to pay cash for them. No financing etc. I want the 10,000+ sq ft home and I want it paid in full...I told you I don't think like most people and neither does Sam. I will not have that going back to being a project manager. And moving up in the system to get to this position I'm talking about will take FOREVER. Will I ever have this being at home? With our website I honestly believe we will one day (Sam's work is beyond amazing). With working a job, we won't.
Am I in to prosperity preaching? No I'm not. I don't believe in teaching God wants you to be rich etc. as the Joel Olsteens of the world do. I do believe in doing the best you can with the talents that God has given you. I don't believe that verse says it's wrong for people to be rich I just believe it's saying it's wrong for people to love money more than they love Christ and that's what I believe and what I'll tell my children. But that doesn't' mean they have to stay broke either. They just have to put everything in the right prospective. It's a goal we have, we don't walk around the house verbalizing it all the time, we both know the goal and end result and the amount of work it'll take to get there and other then this post it never comes up in conversation with anyone outside our home. In the meantime we just stay busy working towards it.
It was very soon after graduation and landing our first jobs that Sam and I realized that working in this field (and in most other fields) we're not going to make as much as we'd like to make. I don't consider 60 and 70 thousand a lot of money. That's just me. Other's don't have to agree but I really want financial freedom and most careers or jobs don't do that. I don't care if you're senior manager, you're still counting dollars.
In saying that I was never content in any job I was working anyhow. As much as I loved it I wanted to make more. You work like a dog. You get told how great you're doing and if the company needs to cut you then they cut you regardless. If you want to take a vacation you have to get someone to cover your projects for you or your shift depending on how your job works and you have a set amount of vacation days each year. I've worked some jobs where you have to accrue vacation days which was really hard 5.25 vacation days every two weeks - do you have any idea how long that'll take to accrue 40 hours!!! I still at that time didn't think I'd be home but I knew I wasn't huge on the working hard thing for a salary I deemed too low. And when raise time came around, guess what you get? 5% (sometimes a little higher but still not high enough in my opinion).
So let me back up a bit, when talking with the hubby I told him I was asked how we'd handle Peyton. After all doesn't she need to see Mommy working outside the home too? She may not get married, or she may marry a man who wants a dual income. So what values or ideas do we instill in her?
For us that's simple. Own whatever you do. It'll be the same for Nathan. If you want to be a doctor then that's fine but own your own practice. Build it up so high that one day you don't have to take patients but can hire other doctors to work under you and your name and you can take vacations. My goal for her would be to run some sort of business she can do remotely something on the internet or anything where she's not tied to some sort of store front. So she can travel etc when she wants. Is what we're telling her a pipe dream? No but it's very hard work. Is it risky? Of course. So is working for a company. (Did I mention I've been let go twice before). My husband and I started late. Our children can start early. I'm so interested in learning their interests to help them develop it into a ministry for Christ and a profit. But that's what we'll tell them. Go to school of course, but choose the best school you can. Be better then mom and dad. We live and learn. I don't go back in the past a lot on this and honestly don't take this post the wrong way I have not regrets. Had I thought of this in about 1995 or so I'd have a successful business of some sort and still be home doing it. It's all about choices and this is the life I chose and right now I'm extremely happy but for Peyton I'd say choose different. If she wants to work for a company one day, than that's her choice but I want to let her know she has options and I don't want her to be afraid to try something different then the "norm".
Also if I were to go back to work I wouldn't achieve much else. I'd finally get that minivan but up above I said I think big right? I want the limited edition, brand new, with navigation and leather, AWD etc. I'd still be looking at monthly payments working or not to determine if I could afford that one or not along with the best childcare I can find so I just don't see the benefit in doing it. I'd honestly rather stay home and see what skills I can use to make a profit on my own. There's tons of people making money off of blogging, I've never bothered researching how, but who knows maybe I could look into that. I know how to bake pretty good if I do say so myself. I really need to work on my presentation but the flavor is amazing :-) Who knows maybe I could turn that into a profit. It's something I'd explore before going back into the workforce. There's many ways to make money other then going to work for someone else. As a matter of fact with the economy being as bad as it is, it's becoming known as the best time to go into business for yourself. And it's also important to note that while a lot of people were impacted by the bad economy, a lot of other people weren't, I really wish the news would focus on those people a little more.
I'm not saying every one should be this way. We were at a picnic with one Sam's friends who said that he knows he'll never make big money working but he honestly feels more comfortable working for someone else then he would trying to make it work for himself. And you know what? That's ok too. I have an aunt who has a very small nice home and loves it. She tells me all the time: "Why would anyone want a house that big?" She truly wouldn't want it. And that's fine too. It's a preference.
I guess to answer the hubby's question. Everyone is different. Some people are happy working. It's great fulfillment to go into work and do something they worked to do in college. And we should respect that. And for some they know our children will only be with us for 18 years or so God willing and they want to still have their careers after the children are gone. And the truth is some people just don't want to do it. I've heard the "we can't afford to live on one income" thing to. Actually in some situations that's true but in others it may not be. When I left work, our bills far outweighed what was coming in. We made drastic changes in how we lived. We started cooking more than eating out, started shopping on Craigslist etc and we actually ended up paying off more bills on one income then we ever did on two. We don't talk about it a lot but if there was ever a time that we "stepped out on faith" that was it. You can come up with all the age old excuses that you want but at times it boils down to some women like working outside of the home and don't like staying at home and again that's that persons business.
I think that's why I love being home so much. The rewards for what I do are endless. I don't get compensation in the form of money but rather in the form of hugs. Does it get boring sometimes? I hardly get bored but I'd be a liar if I said it doesn't get boring at times. But I got bored with working too, even more bored actually. As much as I liked the people I was around going to the same cube got pretty monotonous. Just today I was in the other room and saw my two year old in the kitchen spill a little water on the counter as he was playing, he didn't know I was watching him but I saw him go and get a washcloth and take his time washing it up. He was so serious and concentrating so very hard and he did a really great job too. I watched him finish. Put the the washcloth away and pick up playing where he left off. I don't think he ever noticed me watching. I've got to witness my one year old learn what an airplane is. I love watching that finger in the air as she screams airplane. We live close to the airport so airplanes fly over all the time and that little finger goes straight in the air when she hears one screaming "airpune" LOL of course everything is "airpune" now. She's also very huggy and at time throughout the day she just crawls over and gets hugs. I have so many memories. Nathan just accidentally clunked a kid on the head at the park the other day (I know, aren't I the one always griping about bad children :0) and I took him over to apologize and he's been learning sign language and at that moment I realized he didn't know the sign language for "I'm sorry" and so we had to improvise. So many wonderful memories, that just go on and on, day after day after day... And I share these with Sam throughout the day as he's at work, and I guess he questions even more why anyone would dream of missing this if they had the chance to stay home and witness it. I was working on teaching my son how to count and I was teaching him on his fingers and he wasn't paying any attention to me and I was getting a little frustrated thinking he wasn't getting it so for the time being we moved on to something else. The next week I went into his room in the morning and he had his hands up, fingers spread, counting...he'd gotten it, what a wonderful memory. I get to discipline with patience (well sometimes at least that's my goal, LOL) and love. I was putting on my shirt to leave today and Peyton saw me putting over my head and she lifte her little shirt really high showing off her toddler belly. Her and Nathan have this silly laugh that they do back in forth that I love hearing when they're in the other room playing. Memories. So many memories.
So I guess I explained how I feel about work but don't let that discourage you. Everyone is different that's just my perspective. If you still decide that you want to go back to work one day, then that's fine. But while you're home try to let the feelings of discontentment go.
I chose a different path and a career that didn't do what I thought it would for me. Staying home was a culture shock and more fulfilling then punching a time clock. You know those mastercard commercials (or is it Visa) that says stuff like: "Buying a latte, 3.99, meeting a friend for lunch, priceless" For me it's: "Working outside the home, $50,000 a year. Staying home with Nathan and Peyton, priceless."
My husband and I got into an interesting conversation today. We were talking about the age old struggle (one of the age old struggles I'd imagine there's many others to choose from) of why women struggle so much with choosing to stay home vs. working a job.
I think I said this before that when first walking away from work it was a huge struggle. I really felt like I was giving up something I'd worked so hard for just to stay home and possibly be bored with a baby. And when I first went home I felt that it'd really only be until my children entered school. But since decided that unless the hubby wants me to work I'd like for this arrangement to be permanent. But my husband and I were talking and I told him that a lot of SAHM's still struggle with missing work and he was wondering why. After all he said if he was able to leave his job and stay home he'd be fine with it. (Keep in mind that my hubby runs a website so if he were to come home he'd be doing that full time which is what he really wants anyhow, me too I might add). But if we didn't need the income that his work provides then he'd have no problem leaving and to be honest with you I totally believe him. So why, he's wondering do some women struggle with this feeling as if they're missing something when home instead of at work. Why such discontentment among SAHM's? And I know quite a few SAHM's now and I'm not saying they're not all content but I truly only know one other who would want to make staying at home permanent after the kids are in school. The rest do really like being at home but at the same time can't wait to go back to work.
I guess I have a different mindset. I think I said in an earlier post that I don't care what my children become as long as their profession honors Christ. And not to contradict that earlier post but of course I'm going to encourage them in different areas. However I don't share the same attachment to work that some women have for several reasons:
- Due to this rough economy I was let go from two positions. It was so hard walking into work to find out I only have a week left due to cut backs. Especially after getting rave reviews the week before.
- I didn't major in a field that I really cared for. I was after money doing something I liked wouldn't have earned as much as the field I chose, so I chose money over what I liked. I did end up in a position I loved in the end but I worked a lot of jobs I hated to get there.
- And this is the biggest and the one I'm going to really focus on. A lot of money is relative to whoever you're talking to.
Call me shallow but I like things big and expensive and never wanted to be middle class. I'm thrifty out of necessity not out of desire. I want to live in a gated community with a 10,000+ square ft home (and someone else to clean it) with the vehicle of my choosing. To some that's unbiblical to state you want to be rich but I don't care. It's not a life long goal or an obsession of mine by any means but I'll be real I want more money. I'm content with where I am right now but I still believe on improving and if we're going to get to that upper 6 and 7 digits we're not going to do it pushing any one's time clock. Someone once said Job stands for Just Over Broke and I echo that sentiment. Some may argue that if I were to go back to work I may have some of these things. If you think that, you still don't understand my mindset. I want those things and I want to pay cash for them. No financing etc. I want the 10,000+ sq ft home and I want it paid in full...I told you I don't think like most people and neither does Sam. I will not have that going back to being a project manager. And moving up in the system to get to this position I'm talking about will take FOREVER. Will I ever have this being at home? With our website I honestly believe we will one day (Sam's work is beyond amazing). With working a job, we won't.
Am I in to prosperity preaching? No I'm not. I don't believe in teaching God wants you to be rich etc. as the Joel Olsteens of the world do. I do believe in doing the best you can with the talents that God has given you. I don't believe that verse says it's wrong for people to be rich I just believe it's saying it's wrong for people to love money more than they love Christ and that's what I believe and what I'll tell my children. But that doesn't' mean they have to stay broke either. They just have to put everything in the right prospective. It's a goal we have, we don't walk around the house verbalizing it all the time, we both know the goal and end result and the amount of work it'll take to get there and other then this post it never comes up in conversation with anyone outside our home. In the meantime we just stay busy working towards it.
It was very soon after graduation and landing our first jobs that Sam and I realized that working in this field (and in most other fields) we're not going to make as much as we'd like to make. I don't consider 60 and 70 thousand a lot of money. That's just me. Other's don't have to agree but I really want financial freedom and most careers or jobs don't do that. I don't care if you're senior manager, you're still counting dollars.
In saying that I was never content in any job I was working anyhow. As much as I loved it I wanted to make more. You work like a dog. You get told how great you're doing and if the company needs to cut you then they cut you regardless. If you want to take a vacation you have to get someone to cover your projects for you or your shift depending on how your job works and you have a set amount of vacation days each year. I've worked some jobs where you have to accrue vacation days which was really hard 5.25 vacation days every two weeks - do you have any idea how long that'll take to accrue 40 hours!!! I still at that time didn't think I'd be home but I knew I wasn't huge on the working hard thing for a salary I deemed too low. And when raise time came around, guess what you get? 5% (sometimes a little higher but still not high enough in my opinion).
So let me back up a bit, when talking with the hubby I told him I was asked how we'd handle Peyton. After all doesn't she need to see Mommy working outside the home too? She may not get married, or she may marry a man who wants a dual income. So what values or ideas do we instill in her?
For us that's simple. Own whatever you do. It'll be the same for Nathan. If you want to be a doctor then that's fine but own your own practice. Build it up so high that one day you don't have to take patients but can hire other doctors to work under you and your name and you can take vacations. My goal for her would be to run some sort of business she can do remotely something on the internet or anything where she's not tied to some sort of store front. So she can travel etc when she wants. Is what we're telling her a pipe dream? No but it's very hard work. Is it risky? Of course. So is working for a company. (Did I mention I've been let go twice before). My husband and I started late. Our children can start early. I'm so interested in learning their interests to help them develop it into a ministry for Christ and a profit. But that's what we'll tell them. Go to school of course, but choose the best school you can. Be better then mom and dad. We live and learn. I don't go back in the past a lot on this and honestly don't take this post the wrong way I have not regrets. Had I thought of this in about 1995 or so I'd have a successful business of some sort and still be home doing it. It's all about choices and this is the life I chose and right now I'm extremely happy but for Peyton I'd say choose different. If she wants to work for a company one day, than that's her choice but I want to let her know she has options and I don't want her to be afraid to try something different then the "norm".
Also if I were to go back to work I wouldn't achieve much else. I'd finally get that minivan but up above I said I think big right? I want the limited edition, brand new, with navigation and leather, AWD etc. I'd still be looking at monthly payments working or not to determine if I could afford that one or not along with the best childcare I can find so I just don't see the benefit in doing it. I'd honestly rather stay home and see what skills I can use to make a profit on my own. There's tons of people making money off of blogging, I've never bothered researching how, but who knows maybe I could look into that. I know how to bake pretty good if I do say so myself. I really need to work on my presentation but the flavor is amazing :-) Who knows maybe I could turn that into a profit. It's something I'd explore before going back into the workforce. There's many ways to make money other then going to work for someone else. As a matter of fact with the economy being as bad as it is, it's becoming known as the best time to go into business for yourself. And it's also important to note that while a lot of people were impacted by the bad economy, a lot of other people weren't, I really wish the news would focus on those people a little more.
I'm not saying every one should be this way. We were at a picnic with one Sam's friends who said that he knows he'll never make big money working but he honestly feels more comfortable working for someone else then he would trying to make it work for himself. And you know what? That's ok too. I have an aunt who has a very small nice home and loves it. She tells me all the time: "Why would anyone want a house that big?" She truly wouldn't want it. And that's fine too. It's a preference.
I guess to answer the hubby's question. Everyone is different. Some people are happy working. It's great fulfillment to go into work and do something they worked to do in college. And we should respect that. And for some they know our children will only be with us for 18 years or so God willing and they want to still have their careers after the children are gone. And the truth is some people just don't want to do it. I've heard the "we can't afford to live on one income" thing to. Actually in some situations that's true but in others it may not be. When I left work, our bills far outweighed what was coming in. We made drastic changes in how we lived. We started cooking more than eating out, started shopping on Craigslist etc and we actually ended up paying off more bills on one income then we ever did on two. We don't talk about it a lot but if there was ever a time that we "stepped out on faith" that was it. You can come up with all the age old excuses that you want but at times it boils down to some women like working outside of the home and don't like staying at home and again that's that persons business.
I think that's why I love being home so much. The rewards for what I do are endless. I don't get compensation in the form of money but rather in the form of hugs. Does it get boring sometimes? I hardly get bored but I'd be a liar if I said it doesn't get boring at times. But I got bored with working too, even more bored actually. As much as I liked the people I was around going to the same cube got pretty monotonous. Just today I was in the other room and saw my two year old in the kitchen spill a little water on the counter as he was playing, he didn't know I was watching him but I saw him go and get a washcloth and take his time washing it up. He was so serious and concentrating so very hard and he did a really great job too. I watched him finish. Put the the washcloth away and pick up playing where he left off. I don't think he ever noticed me watching. I've got to witness my one year old learn what an airplane is. I love watching that finger in the air as she screams airplane. We live close to the airport so airplanes fly over all the time and that little finger goes straight in the air when she hears one screaming "airpune" LOL of course everything is "airpune" now. She's also very huggy and at time throughout the day she just crawls over and gets hugs. I have so many memories. Nathan just accidentally clunked a kid on the head at the park the other day (I know, aren't I the one always griping about bad children :0) and I took him over to apologize and he's been learning sign language and at that moment I realized he didn't know the sign language for "I'm sorry" and so we had to improvise. So many wonderful memories, that just go on and on, day after day after day... And I share these with Sam throughout the day as he's at work, and I guess he questions even more why anyone would dream of missing this if they had the chance to stay home and witness it. I was working on teaching my son how to count and I was teaching him on his fingers and he wasn't paying any attention to me and I was getting a little frustrated thinking he wasn't getting it so for the time being we moved on to something else. The next week I went into his room in the morning and he had his hands up, fingers spread, counting...he'd gotten it, what a wonderful memory. I get to discipline with patience (well sometimes at least that's my goal, LOL) and love. I was putting on my shirt to leave today and Peyton saw me putting over my head and she lifte her little shirt really high showing off her toddler belly. Her and Nathan have this silly laugh that they do back in forth that I love hearing when they're in the other room playing. Memories. So many memories.
So I guess I explained how I feel about work but don't let that discourage you. Everyone is different that's just my perspective. If you still decide that you want to go back to work one day, then that's fine. But while you're home try to let the feelings of discontentment go.
I chose a different path and a career that didn't do what I thought it would for me. Staying home was a culture shock and more fulfilling then punching a time clock. You know those mastercard commercials (or is it Visa) that says stuff like: "Buying a latte, 3.99, meeting a friend for lunch, priceless" For me it's: "Working outside the home, $50,000 a year. Staying home with Nathan and Peyton, priceless."
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Blogging
You know I've really grown to love this blogging thing. I've always kept some sort of journal but with blogging I only have time to keep up Nathan and Peyton's journals and I'll just have to print this stuff I write for them to read when they're older.
I don't really do it for the people who read it. Occasionally I'll blog about something if asked but I forget about people who read it since most of you don't leave comments. LOL I was talking to my brother and he was like "yeah I was reading on your blog the other day..." that just struck me as hilarious. And you guys always email instead of leaving comments. Which I don't mind that either. I have to remember to check my email though. Since most of you are on face book now I hardly check my email anymore. I used to check it all the time but now maybe once a day if I remember (sometimes only once a week...). So forgive me for the late responses. Blogging has become therapeutic for me in a sense. I love it. I have a mind that stays full and that's where journaling always came in handy for me. I remember being up during the wee hours of the night before-unable to sleep and would grab a journal and write down what was on my mind and for some reason that always helped me to sleep. It was like I got something off my chest. Blogging can be like that and even better at times because I can type faster than I write anyhow.
I hope I don't offend when I write. That's never my goal. But it does feel good to talk openly at times and hear your views as well, whether they're in agreement or not. I've shared good times, frustrating times, things I think are wrong, my personal thoughts, my anger etc. and again it just felt good to write it. I'm not a wordsmith. I've always preferred to write my feelings out rather then discuss them (something that tends to drive my husband crazy). But it's just how I express myself. I'm not really a big phone person, although please note I don't mind getting calls, LOL don't want that statement to be misunderstood. I love hearing people's voices every now and then but the only people I really call regularly are my buddies who I know don't do anything electronically. So writing for me as a whole is just fun. It's also great because I'm not being graded on bad grammar (and I'm sure there is a lot of it) etc. I can write and just be me.
LOL if you haven't already noticed this blog has not real point to it, so with that I'll end it here. God Bless have a great week!
I don't really do it for the people who read it. Occasionally I'll blog about something if asked but I forget about people who read it since most of you don't leave comments. LOL I was talking to my brother and he was like "yeah I was reading on your blog the other day..." that just struck me as hilarious. And you guys always email instead of leaving comments. Which I don't mind that either. I have to remember to check my email though. Since most of you are on face book now I hardly check my email anymore. I used to check it all the time but now maybe once a day if I remember (sometimes only once a week...). So forgive me for the late responses. Blogging has become therapeutic for me in a sense. I love it. I have a mind that stays full and that's where journaling always came in handy for me. I remember being up during the wee hours of the night before-unable to sleep and would grab a journal and write down what was on my mind and for some reason that always helped me to sleep. It was like I got something off my chest. Blogging can be like that and even better at times because I can type faster than I write anyhow.
I hope I don't offend when I write. That's never my goal. But it does feel good to talk openly at times and hear your views as well, whether they're in agreement or not. I've shared good times, frustrating times, things I think are wrong, my personal thoughts, my anger etc. and again it just felt good to write it. I'm not a wordsmith. I've always preferred to write my feelings out rather then discuss them (something that tends to drive my husband crazy). But it's just how I express myself. I'm not really a big phone person, although please note I don't mind getting calls, LOL don't want that statement to be misunderstood. I love hearing people's voices every now and then but the only people I really call regularly are my buddies who I know don't do anything electronically. So writing for me as a whole is just fun. It's also great because I'm not being graded on bad grammar (and I'm sure there is a lot of it) etc. I can write and just be me.
LOL if you haven't already noticed this blog has not real point to it, so with that I'll end it here. God Bless have a great week!
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Just us women
I had lunch with two of my good friends today and it was so wonderful to be able to laugh and be silly together. No husbands or children just us girls. We were able to talk about the serious stuff as well as the not so serious and also encourage each other in Christ.
I'm thankful for the women God have placed in my life in recent years. Sam and I keep saying we want to move out of Cleveland yet at times I have my doubts because I've met quite a few people that I'd hate to leave behind. People who are like family to both of us. Who knows what the future holds. I'm honestly just taking one day at a time. But today was a good day:-)
-- Post From My iPhone
Sunday, July 5, 2009
My Hero
I have to write about my hero. My love. My husband.
There's so many wonderful things I can say about him but this post couldn't fit them all.
I can't tell you how much I admire him. Still to this day I've not met anyone quite like him. He's not easily provoked and not easily angered. Sometimes I wonder if anything phases him. And the best trait about him is he really thinks before he speaks. It's a trait I'd like to emulate one day. He brings a peace to our home that is immeasurable. In all of our 7 years of marriage I've honestly never heard him argue with anyone (except me of course;-).
He's gentle yet firm when it comes to disciplining the children, hardly raising his voice. He keeps his cool in the most difficult situations. He knows how to admit when he's wrong and he will accept his faults and apologize if need be. He's not perfect and is willing to admit that and he's always willing to learn in areas that he's weak.
Sam works hard providing for his family and he does it without complaining. As a matter of fact it seems to bring him joy. He's diligent.
He's not a fearful man, not easily ruffled even in the most difficult situations.
The most important thing is he lead me to Christ. My parents took me to church my entire life but my husband led me to Jesus Christ. After witnessing all of the qualities I described above I wanted to know what was his inspiration. What made him truly love and care for people.? What makes him love me and our children so much? What makes him hold his tongue even in the most difficult situations?
I love the caring soft way he cares for the children. I love to see him greasy underneath the hood of the car (kind of sexy too I might add). He's a hard worker. He has goals for our family and he works hard at making those goals a reality.
I see a lot of my husband in my son and I'm so proud of that. As much as I want Nathan to talk more I notice how much he observes, how much he listens to people. Sometimes it's fun to watch them standing next to each other father and son. Then I love how Peyton crawls to him full speed screaming Dada. I love how Sam makes a point of giving her a kiss every single night. I love the tone of his voice when he says "honey" to Peyton and Nathan. I love that he tells them "I love you" all the time.
He seeks God and leads us in prayer every night. He's my best source of advice. My favorite shoulder to lean on. Just my favorite person in this world. My hero. My husband.
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