Loving someone more

Ever since I've had children I look at the gospel in a new light. Jesus was the son of God and for him have to watch his son suffer and die... It had to be the ultimate sacrifice. I couldn't imagine willingly sending my child that way.

I so love my family. To be honest with you I don't ever like to think about the possibility of losing my husband or children. I even pray that if God were to choose someone in our household to allow them to go through something then let it be me not my husband and especially not my children. Though if God chooses not to answer that prayer then I have faith knowing he'll carry me through whatever trials may come.

Having children has been the most life changing thing for me. I already loved my husband before them but love him so much more now. My daughter's really clingy to him right now. I watched him put her down yesterday to get some things done but she still wanted to be held and I saw her follow him into the kitchen (past me) and extend her little arms up to him. He stopped what he was doing and grabbed her. It was a beautiful moment.

Lately I find myself observing a lot. I find myself just watching my children in play and even when they sleep. While writing this my 2 year old woke up with a nightmare and I just put him back down (mind you those times specifically aren't always fun:-) but I still get joy out of being able to comfort them. Luke 2:51 says: "51Then he went down to Nazareth with them and was obedient to them. But his mother treasured all these things in her heart". Notice how his mother "treasured" these moments.

I was at a family reunion about 2 weeks ago on my husbands side and I was talking to a cousin of his and I let her know that I noticed two things about her. First she really loves her husband, second they truly seemed to enjoy their children ( they have three grown and one still at home). I told her that and she said she loves that man and loves being a mother. I'm sure it wasn't all roses all the time but through it all I loved talking to an older woman who let me know it was still worth it.

Our children are only in our care for a season and it's not even gauranteed they will live longer then us though that is our prayer. Please enjoy them, love them and cherish them.


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